talk is cheap

ouch!

bitch puhleez!!

talk is cheap!!

blah blah blah

i am stupid

soooooo stupid dat i believe every word u said

hey hey!

there is a quote dat says

"action speaks louder than words"

ur action sure speaks

the unspoken of ur cold hearted part

should have seen it coming!

bam bam bam!!

it hits me

lesson learnt

I FORGIVE U

p/s: dun treat others like u treated me.

i love u friends!!

yup u heard me

I FORGIVE U!

honey.....

a quote once said

"forgive but never forget"

we r friends...

awwww!!

hug!..a big hug!..

xoxo..

i wish nothing but the best 4 u!!

sayang

TTYL!

letting go

i need to stand up now

im a sucker for love

im done chasing u

here's some quote about letting go

courtesy of www.searchquotes.com

1)there are things dat we don't want to happen but have to accept,things we don't want to know but have to learn and people we can't live without but have to let go

2)it sucks when you know u have to let go but u cant because u're still waiting for the impossible to happen.

3)everything happens for a reason. people change so that u can learn n let go and things go wrong so that u can appreciate them when they go right.

4)forgiveness is the key to letting go. forgiveness is not about releasing him/her. its about releasing U!

5)im fighting to get u out of my head but im holding to every words u ever said

6)im done with tears. im wiping my eyes. if u doesn't care then why should i?

heart under construction

2nd time around

with the same person

and the result is still the same

rejected twice!

i didn't see this coming

(okay..maybe i did)

there's signs that this gonna happen

im trying to ignore the fact though

it is always me who start a chat session first

it is always me saying i love u i miss u first

and our first meeting

i know it didnt go well

i remember u said

that u gonna proposed me today

9/11/11

n so..dat day is gonna b a day..

like any other day of my year

i dun understand

why?

u said to me

"im yours ur mine"

where did it go?

n u said

looks don't matter

apparently i guess it did to u

reading back our skype chat

i feel like i'm gonna crack up

u rthe first thing i checked

when i logged on fb

although it ends last nite

9 hours ago

i still wanna know wat happen to u

why the sudden change

do u have someone else in minds

do u love someone else

question left unanswered

ok

never mind

i'll never find someone like u

i need to get myself back together

get my head held high

put a fake smile

faking a laugh

i'll be okay

i wish nothing but the best for u

sometime it last in love but some time it hurts instead

FFS

untitled

heart!
u know u melt my heart
oh fuck u!!
den u break my heart
ur heartless midget creature!!

anyway..
im not serious wit this i love u thingy
it gives me the creeps of jeepers creepers
but wat i hate the most is dat u lied??!!
boo..
u dont deserve my friendship
nor my relationship
cuz u lied

haha!..
i hope dat when the two of u go out on a date
u gonna wear red matching shirts
n im gonna release a herd of bulls
n hopfully
those bulls runs over the two of u
yea!..for sure..im gonna attend ur funeral..;)

when im moody
i tend to see all the bad in people
in EVERYTHING to be exact
im gonna ignore those who talked to me
or chat
or watever
me n my facebook
lets just say dat we're frenemies
screwd u facebookers
there certain facebookers
who i think
selling themself out to the world
listen here honey
ur ugly
u add people who u didnt even know
like seriously??
n u like people's status?
GAWD!!..u must be fucking retard
desperate attention seeker!!

people people people!!
say wat u want
i know
a lot of people hate me!
they dislikes me
n when i said a lot
its A LOT!
but first
lemme tell u
why dun u walk in my shoes
whether it hurts or not
n if u have some free time
try to undergo wat i've experienced through out my life
den u can say all the fucked up things about me
:)
yea u!

n people wit excuses
oh!
i really hope dat i can stare at u so deeply
dat u burst into flame
excuses equals to
a)i dun wanna help u
b)u iritates me
c)i lied
dats about the reason why i think people give excuses
so..erm..excuse me..
u r one disfucntional creature!

reality slaps me in the face..really hard..dat its gonna leave a mark!
n karma is bitch..cuz when it goes around..
be prepared..it gonna be bad when it comes around.
xoxo
urs truly
ur love/hate disoriented n not to mention
dangerously good looking short guy
dat has a wreck up world to live on
chou bellla!!

reminiscing

hey u!

so its 8.56pm
n i got a TERRIBLE HEADACHE
i feel like wanna smash my head against the wall
coz it is in PAIN
my head is THROBBING IN PAIN
i feel like i wanna scream
it hurts so much!
so
dats the first part of the blog
(im blogging while my head n my brain are in damn fucking pain)
next is reminiscing
reminising for me is like walking down memory lane
the bad the goodall those things dat we experienced
dat make us cry
or make us smile

reminiscing about people
those who had impact on us
those who is always there 4 usthose who had passed away
nowhere to see nowhere to touch
but still closed to our hearts

we reminisce the time
where the memories is so sweet
so unforgetable..
we reminisce people that used to be wit ushow they've changed
for better or for worse
we r getting older
we aged from time to time
recalling back who we r before

sumtimes we crywe're hurt, we're sad
dat time we once had
hoping dat we chould turn back time
n relive it all over again
we look back
from time to time
wat we usually do
wat we used to havethe good days
the friends
the enemy
the lies
the truth
love

our actionour thoughts
our responses
we cry all over again
realizing dat it is too little too late
wat said has been said
wat done has been done

dat we dealt wit people emotionn feelings
how we used to treat ones like they're nothing
n when they're gone
all u have about dat person
is a memories wit the
the ups n down
dat is why i love reminiscing all those days
the sins i've commited
the action i've done
which makes who i am today
which i look deep down to myself
reminising the time i used to have
gudnite world..

my facebook on hiatus

yup!
u got it right people
my facebook
its on
HIATUS!!
:)
i should be happy

why??
damn!..facebook colours my life..
(ew!..did i just said dat)
n facebook destroy it too
(ok.say it..I-TOLD-U-SO)

to start my erupting raging rage on facebook users
im gonna say dat
i REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY
hope dat facebook will shut down this 15/3
:)
hahaha..(ok..evil laugh)

ok..im SERIOUS NOW!..SERIOUS THAN ABOVE!
personally i think
Some of the facebook users
they are a fucking snobish person
go fuck urself
u look so HANDSOME n BEAUTIFUL
in ur pro pic
(thanx to ur knowledge on photoshopping)
n u treated ur fren
by not rplying their comments??
not even their chats??
oh u!
ur just a one minute internet facebook sensation
go fuck urself so called HOT-People!
n who r u actually?
a celebrity?..an artist?..a singer?..model?..actor??
to have a fan page?
grow up!!

immature asshole facebookers!
n to those people
who ADDS ADDS ADDS ADDS n ADDS FRIENDS
just to fill ur friendlist
n WORST!!
u didn't even interact or being friends
to those u have added
thinking people might think dat ur so popular..
i hope dat
U GOT HIT BY A TRAILLER!
hahahahah!

n some of the status is
SO ATTENTION SEEKER
"i can't approve any of ur fren request"
"add me to another account..it reach my 5000 frens limit"
"click 'like' above to like my fan page"
those attention seeker need to drink poison!
haha!..

hm..ok deep breath racq deep breath..
so by this
im not gonna fb-ing anymore.
n gonna spend more time on
BLOGGING N TWITTERING!
:)
those 2 are for mature clever civilised people
;);)
haha!
out
c ya peep!

2011..pfft!!

hey!
its me..ya boi!
ya favourite asian boi!
haha..
its 1 month and a half since 2011 starts
n it feels like ages..
since i last blog about random things
still
im not tired to remind
y'all readers out there
(i know there's none..anyway..)
this blog is about my life
in case u dun know wat my blog is..

ok..screw the overly over intro..
so wats up?
im 21 this years!
yea me!!
the age when everything is legalled!
SEX is legalled..n my bff too
my bbf is alcohol
ALCOHOL is legalled too!
yea!

ok..life's update!!
still SUCKS!..gross!
i wonder when it will not sucks..
anyway..
my first problem this year is dat
$$$$
yup
KA_CHING!!
damn!..i really need money now..
seriously..i would willing to
SELL myself..haha
n to hv money..:)

n my study..sucks as well
coz im darn LAZY!
i hate studying
cuz study means
S - study(duh)
T - talking
U - unlimited texting
D - dreaming
Y - yawning
so..get it?
haha!
but i hope i dun failed any subjects..
cross finger..
chou bella...
im out..
dat soon
duh!
im out
ok
bye!
(talking to myself)
TTYL..xoxo

NO more!

hello!
i wanna make a shout out..
lately..i am not myself..
i've been a pain in the ass for people around me
i've been a fucking child n all i do
is create drama n be a trouble maker

n so...
i deciced..it is best for me..
to deactivate n dlete my facebook account..
no more fb for me..
n i know...im gonna miss fb so much...
hmmmmmm..

im gonna miss my post..
when me posting my status..
my friend liking it..
dropping some coment..
i luv dat feeling..
but after 11.59pm tonite..there's no more..

no more uploading picture..
people liking it..
confirming my fren request
comenting on my fren post..
chatting in the chat box
private messaging..
n not to forget..
poking...

fb..im gonna miss u..
a year ++ of fb-ing change me..
leaving the world..
im gonna miss my fren..
n all i can do is..
wish them the best in life..
bye fb..

i HATE IT!

I CANT HELP IT!
DAMN!
ITS NOT DAT I HATE MY PARENTS..
I LOVE THEM
BUT SOMETIMES..
UUUURRRGGGHHHH!!!!!

U KNOW..EVERYTIME I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA EXPLODE
WELL..I GOES STRAIGHT TO MY BLOG..
N SHOVE IT ALL IN
IM WRITING IN CAPS LOCK!!
DAMN IT!!

HOW WILL I EVER DEALT WIT THIS
BLAH BLAH BLAH
"I JUST WANT THE BEST 4 U"
YUP..MOM DAD...I KNOW
BUT!!!!

a)IM 20....20 YO!!!!...STOP TREATING ME LIKE IM 12!!
b)THEY WOULDNT ALLOWED ME TO TAKE LICENSE!...LIKE SERIOUSLY????!!!
DAMN IT!...I AM LIKE THE ONLY ONE AMONG MY
FRIENDS WHO DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO DRIVE A CAR!!
c)NO GOING OUT??!!...OK...IF IM A GURL..THEN I WOULD UNDERSTAND...
BUT...IM A DUDE..!..I'LL BE OK..

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!
n so..i smoke..i drink..
but im not a severe rebel 20-yo-dude!!
n i DONT DO DRUGS!
I DUN KILL N I DUN ROBBD!!
N I DUN RAPED!!

dats about it!!!
n they just know how to shut me down..
"boy..i wan't u to have a bright future..blah blah blah.."
i will have a bright future!..if they would have given
freedom to me..
n i know my limit!..i wouldnt do stupid things!..
..ok im out!!..b4 i lose myself to the world of
insanity rebelliousness!!!!..

roll eyes...@__@

hey!!!
its holiday...as usual..a very boring 1..
how'd u doin..
ok..i sounded crapd out!
i've done nothing..

ok...erm..its FB
u know how much i spend like my 25/7 of hours on fb..
n it irritates me
urgh!
my friends..not all of them..
just some of them only

a)i have some friends..apparently..some of them are korean artist..
hollywood too..n even models n sports athlete..
fuck them!...like seriously..use ur own fucking picture ok..
i know u r fucking ugly..dun care..just dun use some celeb pics..shame n u!!

b)my frens..oh well..my frens...why do u bother to add me up!
den u didn't even interact wit me..oh..u fucking asshole..
wat??!!..adding me just to fill up ur fren list
u pathehtic lil asshole cunt!!
dat applied to both my male n female fren
who never NEVER say a word n interact wit me

urgh!!..damn it!!..im full of anger..!!

n seriously guys???!!!
why n how can u fall for me
eewww..
u gross liltle creature..
yah..i know..im good looking
handsome n all..
but we haven't met
so NO..its a big NO-NO
u just went to another rejected list of mine
hey...slow down ur horses
lets know each other better..
met up..hang out..
then we can figure things out..

n a friendly reminder..
this is my blog..
i blogged about my life..
i know its kinda boring
but i like it..
n u haters out there(if any)
dun bother to read
cuz this is not a sex blog..a gossip celebrity blog..a educational blog
or even politic..
just a story of my life..

bla bla bla
ok racq..u blabbered way too much..
see ya peeps!!
i wanna dlete some fren..
:))

T i love u so much!!!

hey hey..im here again..:)

again..im going to talk bout my life
my fucked up life
so my readers..since this blog is basically bout my life
so dealt wit it ok..
complainer n whiner can go fuckurself

anyway...
i fall in love...
yeah!!
i wish i can tell the whole world who this person isbut....
damn..
i cant..

we met in facebook.
p/s:..i actually have set my eyes on this T a long time ago
but i dun wanna add Ti just wait..a few months past
and then just the end of this september
T add me as fren
i was like...wat??!!
so i was literally smiling to my ears..
confirming T

n we started to pm
haha
den i told her dat i used to admire her
but dont dare to
add T as fren.i just love dat moment.
i love T so much

haha..den i ask to be in a rltnship
T hesitate.
there is term n condition applied..
T wanna meet 1st before we jump into a relationship
i was like...ok.....
T said we'll met in miri..1 months 13 days from now
i said yes
i'll wait 4 T
1 month 13 days is nothingn T said
dat she love me too..

awww...i was in love wit T
falling hard!!
we chat..we text..
we webcam..we call each other
for the past few days
i spend almost rm50 on my hp
its worth it
i love T
btw:..T is so fucking tall..n im dat shortay..;(
i wish i can tell the whole world dat i love T
so damn fucking much
its good dat we're both in miri.
but due to some circumstances
we can go tell people dat we love each other
me n T decided dat
"its a secret we'll nvr tell..xoxo..GG"
but i post this in my blog
coz im sure nobody knows who T is
please dun ask why
the only thing dat matter isI LOVE T!

1 MONTH and 13 days sayang
i'll wait..i love u
i'll always b ur dior!
the perfume dat sticks to ur body
forever

p/s:..dat is the story of my personal relationship life..about my study..well..nothing much..sucks like a fucking asshole motherfucker..at least my rlationshp got bettr

I LOVE U T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

facebooking

its been like 4ever since i last post sumthing here..
hello there my fellow 21 followers..
luv u..
n those who read my blog
if any..i bet no one read it..

my post 4 today is about facebooking..
yup....facebook..
.im undergo my 2 weeks of boring holidays
and all i do is facebooking
like every single minute of my whole lot hols..

facebook is for people to catch up wit frens
from around the world
wat i realised bout facebook is
the facebooker is fake not real plastic n hypocrite
not all facebooker
just some of it

people removes me
from their fren
huh?!!
wat the fuck!
wat did i do to u
u add me up
then u remove me
fuck u!

some of my fren says to me
"racq..u r so annoying in facebook..i mean ur post full my news feed"
aww...i did...dats bad..
well if dats d case
u r cordially invited to remove me frm ur fren
but when i did nothing to u..
and out of the blue
u remove me..
dats a fucker douchebag right there

n facebooker is like so fake
i saw sum of my fren having their profile pic so hot!
too bad its not theirs..
they took it frm the celebutons..
awww...ur ashamed of ur ugliness..
nvm..im ugly too..but my profile pic is real..

n people add me up..
n i confirm them..
n dats it??!!
ur not going to say sumthing
wats the first sentnce whn u wanna b fren wit someone new?
i hate it!
if u just added me to fill in ur fren list
u better not add me though..

people add other people based on their profile pics
yup...
if u have this hot bombastic flawless pic
u'll be a one hit wonder of the internet sensation
having like 5000 frens
o...trust me...ur not connecting wit all of them
maybe its not ur fault
they add u up..
or vice versa...

facebook is for new people meeting new people..
connecting..make new frens
even create a long distant relationship
so why not do it?
??.....people nowadays..
is hard to predict..
this is my view on facebook

departure

hye guys..its me..ric the rac..im so bored so i decided to blog sumthing about..this time its LIFE..yup..life..just so all of u know..i was hospitalized last week 4 dengue..not to worry..its not really dengue..after further diagnosed by the doc..i just caught viral fever..
its a virus infection that cause fever to me..i was so hot..my body temperature rise but i feel so cold at that time..i was literally trembling my shaky bones..i even hv difficulty in breathing..its like i've suffocated myself..seriously..i thought i was going to die..n so i was hospitalized..i'll skip the process..the doc just inserted 2 IV's on both side of my hand..they said there's not much water inside my body..n suprise suprise my only cure is water..i think i hv a LOT of those water bottle they inserted thru the IV..i even need to measure my own urine when i pee..ewww!!..that is like the most disgusted gross things that a person ever do..i mean..measure ur own urine..urgh!!..

after 3 days..i was released...yea me..but my 3 days in the hospital was an eye opener to me..i saw people died in front of me..life is short..there was this old man..his bed is right in front of me..he has dis breathing thingy on his face to help him breathe..i was in the toilet at that time..only to hear people suddenly crying..that man just passed away..may him rest in peace above..n my condolences to the family..

i think that bed in front of me really hv bad mojo..the next occupants in it is in critical condition..again with the IV n a lot of breathing device connected to him..he was regularly supervised n monitored by the doc's n nurse..this grandpa came from a strong christian family..they have all gathered there to pray for the poor grandpa..n i think their prayer has been answered..he was in stable condition although he haven't woke up yet..thats the last thing i know bout him before i was discharged..i hope he recover soon coz he hv a very loving family behind him..

the rest of the patients in the ward is just like me..i saw a lot of love in the room..there's this very old couple..the husband was lying down in bed sick..the the wife is there wit him all the time..this old couple shows me that life is short n that they will survived it together..it broke my heart to see them undergoes this challenges at this age..there's also this teenage guy n his dad..his dad cares for him like he was his life..bringing him food..warming him up..making sure everything is fine wit his boy..they show compassion to me..

hospital for me is just a departure hall..u were there at this very critical moment..its either u survived it or ur not..if u do then live ur life..coz life is short..if u didnt make it..its heaven..or hell..being in the hospital makes me realized all the small things that brings up big impact on ur life..thinking that my life is cut short..i reminiscing all the sins i've commited..given a second chance is an eye opener to me..thats all for this post till next time..take care..

wats luv 4 u??

wats luv...
gotta do gotta do wit it girl..
its bout us..its bout trust..

dats just a lyrics quoting from fat joe ft ashanti
yup..wats luv to u??
i've been thinking bout this lately..
people falling in luv..
people hating luv..

u know wat??..people said those 3 words..
i luv u..
do they really meant it..
do they even know wat luv is??
no..they dont

luv is the best feeling in the world..
u luv the person u loved 4 who they r..
not 4 who they r not..
u need to accept them..
all the flaws..
yup..partners usually accepts the flaws..
not so sincerely..
now thats a bad mojo..

when u luv sum1..
eventhough how bad-ass they could be
how irritating they are
how annoying ur partner is..
all u can do is accepting them..
its about acceptance..

luv is bout trust..
u need to trust them wit all ur heart..
if ur gf/bf said they luv u...
then..trust them..
n please...4 god sake!!
don't be too jealous over each other..
when they're late on replying
ur messages n calls..
do not act like ur a volcano dats about to errupt..
n do not jump to conclusion..
maybe sumthing holding them up..
like i said b4..
loving ur partner is trusting ur partner
coz they're the one u wanna live 4 d rest of ur day

when two peoples are
madly deeply in luv wit each other
there is always a bitter sweet memory that they shared together..
luv is not a skin deep feeling..
like u see this hot guy...
tall..handsome..perfect body..n u fall 4 him..@
pretty..smoking hot bikini body n flipping hair..n u fall 4 her
now honey!!
its not love..its LUST..

summing all the craps that i just wrote..
luv is about
*acceptance*
*trust*
*patience*
if u do not have this 3 things..
cut the bullshit out by not saying i luv u..
coz they might just believe it..

p/s:a luv point of view from mr hopeless romantic..

i've no idea wat title i should gv bout this post

hell-O!!..its me again..
ur over-emotional blogger..
dropping down some words in his blog..
its been exactly a month
since my last post..
that i haven't put out a new entry..

wats new on me??
nothing..i've been the same
since the last time u see me
@ heard from me..
i've got a flat n boring life..
u'll get bored of me eventually
TRUST ME..

im glad dat people are giving me compliment..
my friends in facebook..
u know...
saying..oh..ur handsome..(blah!!)
ur cute!..(eeww!)
ur nice n fun..
I DOUBT IT!!

the problem wit me is
i cant see myself thru my friends eyes..
idk wat they saw in me
its just dat its hard 4 me to believe
all the compliment

maybe its cuz of my very low(how low can i go) self confidence
i hv problem wit dat..
when people complimented me..
i just turn them down..
n saying like..
"oh puhleezz..when u see me in real life, i swear..
ur gonna take all ur compliments back"
n guess wat..im totally okay wit it

now..this may sounds weird..
but i prefer people telling me all my flaws
1)pimple face!
2)short!
3)dark
dats how i feel about myself..
not the other way round..

n believe me my beloved friends..
im not as nice as i look in the picture..
u dun wanna know
ALL THE BAD THINGS IVE DONE
n by that..
i mean A LOT OF BAD THINGS
dat u never thought i did..

now..thats enough of me bragging about watever this stuff is..
on to the next post..
p/s..my result..FAILED

liar liar pants on fire

liar

yup..im a liar
everyone..every people on this planet earth lied
no big deal..
i lied to people around me
they lied to me..
we're even

we lied coz we need to
coz the truth hurts
dats it
people lie just so
their deepest darkest secret
is kept a secret and nobody should know bout it
or
we lied coz people expect too much from us
n we didn't met their expectation
so a lie is wat we need to create
just to c their smile..

lies
to me is a variation of fake words
i lied about my feelings..
i lied about wat i did..
i called people fakes..
but im just like them..
i lied to my frens
to everyone.
i create lies after lies after lies just to cover up a single lies

i dun wanna come clean
i need to open up to people
but i can't
i did it already
nobody needs to know bout my lie..
its better if u dun know the truth
or the truth might make u
crumbling down to the ground
losing faiths n hopes n me
n making u a teary eyed
that will never subside
n things will never be the same again between
u me us n them

"L" - L O S E R F A I L E D!!

GOD PLEASE HELP ME!

HUH..
HERE'S WRECK-WELL A WELL ORIENTED EMO GUY
AND THIS TIME
EMO STRUCK HIS SOUL
AGAIN N ITS A HARD ONE!


SEE...ITS MY EXAM WEEK..
YEAH EXAM..PAPER..STDYING..
(GETTING GOOD GRADES)
JUST FINISH 3 PAPER..
AND I'M PRETTY SURE 2 OF MY PAPER
IS LIKE A PLANE CRASHING DOWN
IN THE SEA
AND EXPLODE TO A THOUSAND PIECES
OF FAILURE


SERIOUSLY..
IM TIRED OF FAILING
I DID LIKE EVERYTHING
MAYBE IM NOT THE MOST HARDWORKING DUDE
IN THIS WORLD
BUT I DID STDY..(AND I FELT LIKE I DIDN'T STDY)
BUT I ENDED UP FAILING
LIKE A PATHETIC LOSER
AND ALL IM GOOD AT IS FAILING


i envied those people
OMG..they are like freaking genius
dey dun even need to study
their head off
yet
thei results is like..(WOW)
i just dun want to get expelled from this u
it would be so embarrassing
but honestly
i might get booted out
next sem..
mom dad..im sorry


moving on to my relationship
yup
everyone knows im single now
just ending my 2 years on n off relationship
truth be told
i still luv her
haha
n i still miss her
i dun know how she felt now
nevermind
i tried to forget her
but DAMN!..it was HARD job..
all the memories we shared together
all the ups and down
all the sulking
currently..im listening to COLBIE CAILLAT
I NEVER TOLD YOU
dat song represent wat i feel about my relationship..
n my relationship quote is
I NEVER STOP LOVING U
IT'S JUST DAT I STOP SHOWING IT

p/s:
luv is universal
luv everyone u want
luv whoever u want
luv as many as u want


move on to my already crumbling apart life
finished all my 3 papers
one more to go and its not a good one
its one of my weakest subject of all
this monday is gonna be shit 4 me
then im finished..but can't go back home yet
OMG!!..i miss MIRI so much..
because of that stupid fucking asshole bullshiting motherfucker
camping that is freaking compulsory to attend
i'll be back on the 15/5
DAMN..it was like 2 weeks from now
ok..i'll survive
i think
and then there's the time
-waiting-for-result-to-be-released-
im dead..i dun want to fail
but i know im gonna failed
people telling me to think positive
but all i have os negativity
and worst of all
im gonna let my parents down
im sorry..
im no good as a human
i'd rather DIE
RIP WRECK WELL

together is not always forever..

hm..

yeah..stop calling me..
im trying to forget u...
but forgetting u is harder than i thought
i still luv u V..
n i know u still luv me
but i'm ready to let u go..
dat conversation we last had
make me realize
that we r not meant to be together..
no matter how strong our luv is..
there are other guys 4 u out there
i know there's a reason of our
on n off relationship..
thanx for always being there
all the time when we're together
when i need u the most
but now..
im trying to be stronger
by doing it alone
im ignoring u
so that i can forget bout u..
n i'm trying really hard
V i hope u understand..
i know its hard..
i don't belong here wit u..
i need to move on here..
n get over us..
it is written that we're together
but we're not destined to be together 4ever..
i pray that
u will find sumbody for my replacement
n thanx for the memories we've together..
ur my fist love that i would never forget..
VSK..im sorry..
take care..n i hope u forget me..

disoriented n disfunctional

another emotionally post by me

yup..me..
i don't know wats happening to me this week
its my study week
but then again
i did NOTHING
i dun even stdy
like i seriously wanna hit the book
but am too lazy to just revise the first part
of watever in the notes..
i don't know wat i feel now
its just a mixed up of feelings
an overwhelmed of super negative
emotion, thinking and feeling
please GOD help me
i need to find peace
im locking myself in my room
doing nothing
wondering wats life has in store for me
sumtimes its just too tough
everything i did is wrong
i called people fake
witout realising that im
FAKER than them

TO be ConTiNUED........

e.m.o.t.h.a.t.s.m.e...

I CHOOSE NOTHING TO DESCRIBE

MY LIFE BUT QUOTES..

THE QUOTES DESCRIBE MY LIFE.

thanx for reading..RR