e.m.o.t.h.a.t.s.m.e...

I CHOOSE NOTHING TO DESCRIBE

MY LIFE BUT QUOTES..

THE QUOTES DESCRIBE MY LIFE.

thanx for reading..RR

over written

halo peeps!!..and especially to my ONLY 8 FOLLOWERS..HAHA!!..HOW'D U BEEN??

I REALISED THAT MY BLOG IS FULL WIT WORDS.

now that's a big NO-NO in blog rules.

so im not gonna write A LOT of crappy stuff..

coz believe me honey..u'll get bored reading all my whinings..

so no words..just picz!!..

ok..maybe a bit of both..

then it'll make a good blog..(as if)..LAME..

sorry no pictures available for this post..i wonder why i post this post again??...hmmmmmmm.....

mr hopeless romantic

hell-o peeps!!..guess whose here??..its me!!..LAME!!!!!!..IM GETTING SO LAME LATELY..AND WEIRD..

i guess that's just me then..btw..recent update of my life:..

1)study:..can i quit stdy..seriously..pretty please..wit a cherry on top..got to test i've did..n suprise suprise!!!...i can't do it..blah blah blah...
2)relationship..wow!!!!!!..im speechlees...gosh!!..wat i am??..who i am??..do i really knew wat love is??..what love really is..like??..admiration???..jealousy???...obsession??..@ just a feeling..its super duper complicated..n im making it worse..

3)life:can't my life get any worse..damn..i should kill myself..but im scared..lolx...watever..just go on wit the BORING lame motherfucking quote..(LIFE MUST GO ON)



ON THIS POST..IM GONNA SHARE 10 QUOTES OF LOVE..
(SINCE IM A BIT EVERYWHERE N FAILURE IN LOVE,ITS GONNA BE A TROUBLE IN LOVE QUOTE)

1) when sumone really luvs u, they will never hurt u. And if they do,u can see it in their eyes, that it hurts them too.

2) At night i pray that soon ur face will fade away.

3) Harsh word hurt feeling but silence breaks hearts.

4) It is better to be hated for who u r then to be loved for someone u r not.

5) Hatred paralyzes life, love releases it, hatred confuses life, loves harmonizes it, hatred darkens life, loves illumines it

6) I do to my body what has been done to my soul

7) I wanna die, i wanna bleed, i wanna cry but all i can do is just keep waiting with a smile on my face and pretend the scars aren't really there.

8) I wrote this love note with my own blood so you know it come straight from my heart.

9) I sit here crying not because i miss u, but because i know i'll never have the chance to hurt u like u hurt me.

10) It's amazing how someone can break ur heart and but u still luv them with all the little pieces.

ERMMM..I DECIDED TO MAKE IT 15...
(COZ IM SO EMOTIONALLY CONFUSES N BROKEN N DISORIENTED WIT MY OWN FEELINGS NOW)
SO HERE'S ANOTHER 5..

11) I was born when u kissed me, i died when u left me, i lived a few weeks while u love me.

12) I cry for the time that u were almost mine i cry for the memories i've left behind i cry for the pain, the lost, the old, the new I cry for the times I thought i had u.

13) I was waiting 4 u last night under a broken street lights at least that light will be fixed unlike my heart.

14) Just when u thought everything would be so perfect everything falls apart.

15) Im gonna draw a picture, a picture of us, using my own blood, I'll draw it using a razor blade on my wrist..



















do we really know wat loves is?..do we really mean it when we say i love u forever and not break ur heart..but then u break ur promises..is luv is limited??..luv is universal..guy n a girl, guy n a guy n girl n a girl..they have one thing in common..it involves hearts and feelings..love is universal n no 1 can stop us from loving the one we love..even if the world against u and that person didnt luv u back..n ur new bff is ur tears..all the way down.....

its a girl girl world...

ok..boys out there..imma give u some info/facts about girls..haha..im on behalf of all the boys dude guys gay(although they're gay they're still a male..lame..lol..)..is goin to take a risk talking about girls that make our world go round..OUR WORLD..lmao..first of all a girl will always be girl..they're the drama queen of our life..now i'm gonna get real..every body knows girls have boobs(lol)..n the private parts..(i wanna mention bout it..but nahh..everybody should know..right)..n they got curves..now thats wat a girl is made..(sory for the transgender..ur not in the list..rofl)..

now..that should do for the intro..every guys shoud hv a girl in their life..p/s im still single..anyone..haha..girl complete our life..n girls has a completely complicated variety of types in this world..the first one is the pretty one..now every guys luv this type..this type is so pretty inside out..n now im searching for one of them..they didn't need photoshop editing their photos coz they r so very pretty in a natural way..n their inside..now thats a bonus right there..warmhearted, loving caring understanding thoughtful..just a very angelic characteristic..a nice human being a pure untouchable piece of soul..i love u..whoever has that in their soul..AND there are this very pretty girl dat is so mean..talk about mean girls..ever watch it..girls n chicks out there..ur sooo pretty but inside..OMG..TRASH ON A TRAMPOLIN OR A TRAMP IN A TRAMPOLIN..this type is so mean a BITCH..SLUT..POSER n FAKE..wat else??..did i miss anything out..a backstabber hypocrite..plasticizers..lol..im in lost of word describing this type of girl..

now the ugly girl..they r not ugly..they're just unique in their own way..reality check this type of girl is so good at heart..they r way more better than those whore..damn it..so please respect this type of girl..n disrespect the bitches..haha..girl came in many shape n sizes..now this should be fun..there's the thin thinny like a stick..a just right; all the proportion is at the right places..n the big/plus size..hm..a thin one is like those model u see in runway or photoshoot...AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL much??..they can be so anorexic..girls..u dun look pretty if ur a broom stick..put up some weight will ya..guys dun like thinny weeny type..plus its bad 4 ur health..VERY BAD...n they just right body..need i explain more??..they are perfect..pleez...maintain n keep up wat ur mama give ya..shake it dun break it girl..lool..n the fatso..no offense..there are always excercising for u..pleez i beg u..no lipo suction..very bad 4 ur health..n alert on wat u put inside ur mouth..just live a healthy life style than u get a better life..

girls feeling is so complicated..its as complicated as ur trying to solve an equation of calculus algebra + mechanics of calculation..they r so vulnerable sensitive n..........???..hm....u dun mess wit girls feeling..when they love u..they mean it..even if ur the ugliest human being in the world..in their eyes..ur perfect..treat them like wat they deserve..its like this tag u see in shops/malls..once broke consider sold..or in this case..if u broke a girl hearts..they broke urs(some of them)..they r so sensitive..their weapon is the tears..the tears can make or break u..girls need attention..n affection..so treat them like how u treated ur PS2,3 @ 4..handle them wit care n respect them..girls matured earlier than us guys..4 me..nah...we r more @ less the same..if ur in love..at that time girls need A LOT OF attention n luv..texting and sms-ing is a must..if not they are going to put their sulking face up..when girl sulks..its hard to comfort them..im so bad at comforting girl..maybe thats the reason why im single now..girls can be so determined n strong hearted..no matter who or wat u r..when they love u they really mean it..even if u guys spend a lot of time playing COD, L4D, DOTA, PES..they can still hv the patience wit us..jus dun get them mad..reply their sms asap..

girls ha a huge allergic on camera..need i to say more on it..CAMWHORING..when there's a camera in their hand..snap2..wit all the poses..lol..sumtimes i laugh at them..all those do-look-cute pose..OMG..n they LOVES to POUT..u know..the thing they do wit their mouth when snapping pics..gosh..GIRLS..u dun have to pout..u look pretty without pouting..when u POUT..U LOOK UGLY LIKE A TRASH CAN..N U LOOK STUPID too..sorry for that..

i think thats all about my thoughts on girls..a big APOLOGIZE if u hate it..well thats the truth..girls need boys n boys need girls..so peace out..do drop a comment if i miss anything out..take care fellas!!..

lady gaga ROCKS my telephone..:)

boo-hoo ME!!

its been a while since i last reported about my life in this blog..well..not really reporting just COMPLAINING about my LIFE..again..yeah..so..u guys should listen to this old-enuff-whiner-who-whines...A LOT!!..a quick recap of wat i did in my already disastrous tumbling mumbling rumbling down LIFE...

1)...LAZY...
seriously????!!!..i wonder if there's some sort of award that actually exist in this world..that says..THE LAZIEST PERSON THAT EVER LIVE ON PLANET EARTH..now..i should totally be nominated for my uber-laziness that none could compare with..u see..i got this 2 test/exam(whatever u wanna call it)..like seriously all my friends is like freaking studying..n im the totally opposite..i wonder if they're still have their head on after all that studying n cramming..temporary insanity..duh!!!..n for me..yeah..me..im just LIVING..thats my occupation now..LIVING..an occupation only a lazy ass like me did for life..im just love living..haha..it makes me feel alive..n LIVING means sleeping eating relaxing n of course movie..hm...thats all 4 my lazy section i guess..well im too LAZY to explain more..on to next....

2)STUDY
remind myself again why do i write about stdying..although im not really STUDYING..i mean i did study but NOT MUCH..haha...i would compare my study life to a fish out of water..haha..like seriously peeps..im barely hanging on..again LAZYNESS overwhelmed me..n when i sit for a test/exam..i was like....fuck!!..did we learn this??!!..n im totally screwed myself..BIG TIME on it..n when the result came out..i would undergo a transition state..i would be so totally EMO..im emo now..but it worsen when i got a result like a piece of SHIT..too embarassed to admit..like recently..a 3/40?????!!!!!///wat the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..there is seriously something is totally wrong with my brain cell...sometimes i wondered if i have a brain that actually work..LMFAO..haha

3)KA-CHING PROBLEMO
money makes the world go right round..for me..money makes me wanna buy everything my heart desires..but recently..there's a bummer in my account..damn it!!..need to cut it short..there's this one nite..me n my fren is going out having fun..u know..fun for me is CLUBBING..yeah..n on our way to like the hottest club in town..BOOM!!!!!!!!!!!...OMFG>>>>..our car got crash..dumbass..its an accident..fuck!!..that totally ruin my nite..then we need to pay rm1500(rm300 each)..and that just rooked my wallet n my already nothing account..n after everything is over..weird enuff we still rocked the club that nite..after wat hapened..LMAO..my friends..oh my!!..they know how to have fun..ty guys..so when is next??..cant wait..(didn't i meantion earlier im broke..)..lol..we're off at 7.30am the next day..xoxo to my party people..:))))))

4)RANDOMNESS TOTALLY EVERYTHING..
everything about life..hm..idk why..i feel like people around me is annoyed n hates me..A LOT..oh again my HATERS...fuck U!!!..i hope u die in hell!!!..do u ever feel like u wanna slit a person's throat although they done nothing to you..just seeing that person each day make me wanna took my russian roulette n give that asshole a head shot..recently i got pretty emotional easily..even if my friend came up to me they just anooyed me..(even if they done nothing bad to me)..i seriously need to hold a grip of myself..i should attend anger management control..@anger-emo mangement control..fuhh!!..n i think i have a lot of 2-faced friends!!!..do it ur way guys..ur smarter than me..n i just feel so weird that u guys failed to use ur brain to maneuver n think n act!!...at leat my brain still fuctioning for that purpose..

hm......wat else???..lose of word..sooooo..i guess thats the end of my 1st post..c ya my readers..
(n my 7 FOLLOWERS..i luv u somuch..GOD BLESS U GUYS)..XX..

fail

hye..this is me again..just to clarify everything this blog is the only place that i expressed wat i feel at the moment..n right know i feel so useless..i dun need ur pity or sympathy..just read watever im writing or posting coz its all bout me..fyi im a student at a local uni..taking civil eng..my heart is not in this actly..my brain is not for engineering..so i've decided to quit my study...my poiter last sem is so not good..its so low..and i barely survived the elimination..i think i can do it much better next sem but no..its worsen..i tried to like this course but to no success..i just got back from a test..a mid term test..n it is like the first time of my life as a student that i submit an almost empty answersheet to the lecturer..i wrote almost nothing..i dont know what the fuck the question is about..i go to a total blank..i think im gonna score 5/40 marks..thats good for a dumbass person like me..this is not the first time..its recurring everytime i sit for test..i did stdy but..i just dont know..im a fool..i really wanna quit stdying but there is somethings that stop me..my mom just text me before i went to my test..she asks me to stdy very hard..n never give up..n im doing the opposite of wat she said..i'll broke her heart if i said im quitting stdy..but i cant do this anymore..this is just to much for me to handle..the more i tried to force myself the more it hurts me...n then i was thinking..if im gonna quit stdying..wat m i gonna do..just stay at home doing nothing??..than im gonna b a burden to my family..i dun want that..i'd rather died than just giving them trouble..i've made a huge mistake in my life..the very wrong course i take n it gets the best of me..civil just swallowed me alive..im taking civil coz it sounds promising for my near future..im a bio student actually..n taking a physics major is the stupidest thing for me to do..i tried to stop feeling sorry to myself..try to b strong..but im getting weaker n weaker each day..i don't know wat i should do..i'm ashamed of myself..im the stupidest foolish no brain student of my entire class..they r so good that i feel so low talking to them..they know everything and i know nothing..i wish i can be like them..n not being ashamed of..but it turn out differently..to tell u d truth i've ever thinking of killing myself..how short minded of me right??..but i still have faith a small sparkle of faith n hope..just maybe..maybe that i can make this out alive..succeed like my other friends..now..im accepting everything..the truth hurts..im a failure..a quitter..a good for nothing..mom n dad..im so sorry..i break ur heart n crushing down ur dream..to whoever is reading my blog..this is me..think watever u guys wanna think..im off now..till next time..if there is a next time..

sorry 4 myself

and here i am again.feeling sorry for myself..this past few weeks have been a not so good for me..more like discovering who i am..i guess thats a little too late for it huh..
this is a story about a guy who has nothing to offer to the world..those who reads this post might think that he's just a pathethic good for nothing guy who is too ordinary that he feels useless in the bog world he's living..he's that short guy..very short..159cm..5'2..and he's 20 y.o..too short for his age that he feels so insecure..he can't model coz he's short dark and his pimplish face...now that is one horible being..lool..he knows nothing..he's taking civil engineering and he's that dumb ass..he's not clever but he's so lazy to study..wonder what is on his mind..next...he loves music..A LOT..but he can't even play a fucking instrument and can't even sing a single note..pity him..he got nothing special about himself..nothing that makes him special that the world would recognize..he got a girlfriend before..but he dumped her..thinking that he's not good for her..now that's wat i called stupid..i dont know what holds for him in the future..he suck's in his own life..i wonder he will survived his life or life just get the better part of him..all he can see about himself is just all the negativity and flaws..there's no extra special about himself..not the best looking guy..maybe the worst..i hope the world eats him alive..he's good for nothing..owh..i forgot to tell u guys who he is..he's the owner of this blog............................................RIP>>>>>>