i've no idea wat title i should gv bout this post

hell-O!!..its me again..
ur over-emotional blogger..
dropping down some words in his blog..
its been exactly a month
since my last post..
that i haven't put out a new entry..

wats new on me??
nothing..i've been the same
since the last time u see me
@ heard from me..
i've got a flat n boring life..
u'll get bored of me eventually
TRUST ME..

im glad dat people are giving me compliment..
my friends in facebook..
u know...
saying..oh..ur handsome..(blah!!)
ur cute!..(eeww!)
ur nice n fun..
I DOUBT IT!!

the problem wit me is
i cant see myself thru my friends eyes..
idk wat they saw in me
its just dat its hard 4 me to believe
all the compliment

maybe its cuz of my very low(how low can i go) self confidence
i hv problem wit dat..
when people complimented me..
i just turn them down..
n saying like..
"oh puhleezz..when u see me in real life, i swear..
ur gonna take all ur compliments back"
n guess wat..im totally okay wit it

now..this may sounds weird..
but i prefer people telling me all my flaws
1)pimple face!
2)short!
3)dark
dats how i feel about myself..
not the other way round..

n believe me my beloved friends..
im not as nice as i look in the picture..
u dun wanna know
ALL THE BAD THINGS IVE DONE
n by that..
i mean A LOT OF BAD THINGS
dat u never thought i did..

now..thats enough of me bragging about watever this stuff is..
on to the next post..
p/s..my result..FAILED

liar liar pants on fire

liar

yup..im a liar
everyone..every people on this planet earth lied
no big deal..
i lied to people around me
they lied to me..
we're even

we lied coz we need to
coz the truth hurts
dats it
people lie just so
their deepest darkest secret
is kept a secret and nobody should know bout it
or
we lied coz people expect too much from us
n we didn't met their expectation
so a lie is wat we need to create
just to c their smile..

lies
to me is a variation of fake words
i lied about my feelings..
i lied about wat i did..
i called people fakes..
but im just like them..
i lied to my frens
to everyone.
i create lies after lies after lies just to cover up a single lies

i dun wanna come clean
i need to open up to people
but i can't
i did it already
nobody needs to know bout my lie..
its better if u dun know the truth
or the truth might make u
crumbling down to the ground
losing faiths n hopes n me
n making u a teary eyed
that will never subside
n things will never be the same again between
u me us n them

"L" - L O S E R F A I L E D!!

GOD PLEASE HELP ME!

HUH..
HERE'S WRECK-WELL A WELL ORIENTED EMO GUY
AND THIS TIME
EMO STRUCK HIS SOUL
AGAIN N ITS A HARD ONE!


SEE...ITS MY EXAM WEEK..
YEAH EXAM..PAPER..STDYING..
(GETTING GOOD GRADES)
JUST FINISH 3 PAPER..
AND I'M PRETTY SURE 2 OF MY PAPER
IS LIKE A PLANE CRASHING DOWN
IN THE SEA
AND EXPLODE TO A THOUSAND PIECES
OF FAILURE


SERIOUSLY..
IM TIRED OF FAILING
I DID LIKE EVERYTHING
MAYBE IM NOT THE MOST HARDWORKING DUDE
IN THIS WORLD
BUT I DID STDY..(AND I FELT LIKE I DIDN'T STDY)
BUT I ENDED UP FAILING
LIKE A PATHETIC LOSER
AND ALL IM GOOD AT IS FAILING


i envied those people
OMG..they are like freaking genius
dey dun even need to study
their head off
yet
thei results is like..(WOW)
i just dun want to get expelled from this u
it would be so embarrassing
but honestly
i might get booted out
next sem..
mom dad..im sorry


moving on to my relationship
yup
everyone knows im single now
just ending my 2 years on n off relationship
truth be told
i still luv her
haha
n i still miss her
i dun know how she felt now
nevermind
i tried to forget her
but DAMN!..it was HARD job..
all the memories we shared together
all the ups and down
all the sulking
currently..im listening to COLBIE CAILLAT
I NEVER TOLD YOU
dat song represent wat i feel about my relationship..
n my relationship quote is
I NEVER STOP LOVING U
IT'S JUST DAT I STOP SHOWING IT

p/s:
luv is universal
luv everyone u want
luv whoever u want
luv as many as u want


move on to my already crumbling apart life
finished all my 3 papers
one more to go and its not a good one
its one of my weakest subject of all
this monday is gonna be shit 4 me
then im finished..but can't go back home yet
OMG!!..i miss MIRI so much..
because of that stupid fucking asshole bullshiting motherfucker
camping that is freaking compulsory to attend
i'll be back on the 15/5
DAMN..it was like 2 weeks from now
ok..i'll survive
i think
and then there's the time
-waiting-for-result-to-be-released-
im dead..i dun want to fail
but i know im gonna failed
people telling me to think positive
but all i have os negativity
and worst of all
im gonna let my parents down
im sorry..
im no good as a human
i'd rather DIE
RIP WRECK WELL

together is not always forever..

hm..

yeah..stop calling me..
im trying to forget u...
but forgetting u is harder than i thought
i still luv u V..
n i know u still luv me
but i'm ready to let u go..
dat conversation we last had
make me realize
that we r not meant to be together..
no matter how strong our luv is..
there are other guys 4 u out there
i know there's a reason of our
on n off relationship..
thanx for always being there
all the time when we're together
when i need u the most
but now..
im trying to be stronger
by doing it alone
im ignoring u
so that i can forget bout u..
n i'm trying really hard
V i hope u understand..
i know its hard..
i don't belong here wit u..
i need to move on here..
n get over us..
it is written that we're together
but we're not destined to be together 4ever..
i pray that
u will find sumbody for my replacement
n thanx for the memories we've together..
ur my fist love that i would never forget..
VSK..im sorry..
take care..n i hope u forget me..

disoriented n disfunctional

another emotionally post by me

yup..me..
i don't know wats happening to me this week
its my study week
but then again
i did NOTHING
i dun even stdy
like i seriously wanna hit the book
but am too lazy to just revise the first part
of watever in the notes..
i don't know wat i feel now
its just a mixed up of feelings
an overwhelmed of super negative
emotion, thinking and feeling
please GOD help me
i need to find peace
im locking myself in my room
doing nothing
wondering wats life has in store for me
sumtimes its just too tough
everything i did is wrong
i called people fake
witout realising that im
FAKER than them

TO be ConTiNUED........

e.m.o.t.h.a.t.s.m.e...

I CHOOSE NOTHING TO DESCRIBE

MY LIFE BUT QUOTES..

THE QUOTES DESCRIBE MY LIFE.

thanx for reading..RR

over written

halo peeps!!..and especially to my ONLY 8 FOLLOWERS..HAHA!!..HOW'D U BEEN??

I REALISED THAT MY BLOG IS FULL WIT WORDS.

now that's a big NO-NO in blog rules.

so im not gonna write A LOT of crappy stuff..

coz believe me honey..u'll get bored reading all my whinings..

so no words..just picz!!..

ok..maybe a bit of both..

then it'll make a good blog..(as if)..LAME..

sorry no pictures available for this post..i wonder why i post this post again??...hmmmmmmm.....