facebooking

its been like 4ever since i last post sumthing here..
hello there my fellow 21 followers..
luv u..
n those who read my blog
if any..i bet no one read it..

my post 4 today is about facebooking..
yup....facebook..
.im undergo my 2 weeks of boring holidays
and all i do is facebooking
like every single minute of my whole lot hols..

facebook is for people to catch up wit frens
from around the world
wat i realised bout facebook is
the facebooker is fake not real plastic n hypocrite
not all facebooker
just some of it

people removes me
from their fren
huh?!!
wat the fuck!
wat did i do to u
u add me up
then u remove me
fuck u!

some of my fren says to me
"racq..u r so annoying in facebook..i mean ur post full my news feed"
aww...i did...dats bad..
well if dats d case
u r cordially invited to remove me frm ur fren
but when i did nothing to u..
and out of the blue
u remove me..
dats a fucker douchebag right there

n facebooker is like so fake
i saw sum of my fren having their profile pic so hot!
too bad its not theirs..
they took it frm the celebutons..
awww...ur ashamed of ur ugliness..
nvm..im ugly too..but my profile pic is real..

n people add me up..
n i confirm them..
n dats it??!!
ur not going to say sumthing
wats the first sentnce whn u wanna b fren wit someone new?
i hate it!
if u just added me to fill in ur fren list
u better not add me though..

people add other people based on their profile pics
yup...
if u have this hot bombastic flawless pic
u'll be a one hit wonder of the internet sensation
having like 5000 frens
o...trust me...ur not connecting wit all of them
maybe its not ur fault
they add u up..
or vice versa...

facebook is for new people meeting new people..
connecting..make new frens
even create a long distant relationship
so why not do it?
??.....people nowadays..
is hard to predict..
this is my view on facebook

departure

hye guys..its me..ric the rac..im so bored so i decided to blog sumthing about..this time its LIFE..yup..life..just so all of u know..i was hospitalized last week 4 dengue..not to worry..its not really dengue..after further diagnosed by the doc..i just caught viral fever..
its a virus infection that cause fever to me..i was so hot..my body temperature rise but i feel so cold at that time..i was literally trembling my shaky bones..i even hv difficulty in breathing..its like i've suffocated myself..seriously..i thought i was going to die..n so i was hospitalized..i'll skip the process..the doc just inserted 2 IV's on both side of my hand..they said there's not much water inside my body..n suprise suprise my only cure is water..i think i hv a LOT of those water bottle they inserted thru the IV..i even need to measure my own urine when i pee..ewww!!..that is like the most disgusted gross things that a person ever do..i mean..measure ur own urine..urgh!!..

after 3 days..i was released...yea me..but my 3 days in the hospital was an eye opener to me..i saw people died in front of me..life is short..there was this old man..his bed is right in front of me..he has dis breathing thingy on his face to help him breathe..i was in the toilet at that time..only to hear people suddenly crying..that man just passed away..may him rest in peace above..n my condolences to the family..

i think that bed in front of me really hv bad mojo..the next occupants in it is in critical condition..again with the IV n a lot of breathing device connected to him..he was regularly supervised n monitored by the doc's n nurse..this grandpa came from a strong christian family..they have all gathered there to pray for the poor grandpa..n i think their prayer has been answered..he was in stable condition although he haven't woke up yet..thats the last thing i know bout him before i was discharged..i hope he recover soon coz he hv a very loving family behind him..

the rest of the patients in the ward is just like me..i saw a lot of love in the room..there's this very old couple..the husband was lying down in bed sick..the the wife is there wit him all the time..this old couple shows me that life is short n that they will survived it together..it broke my heart to see them undergoes this challenges at this age..there's also this teenage guy n his dad..his dad cares for him like he was his life..bringing him food..warming him up..making sure everything is fine wit his boy..they show compassion to me..

hospital for me is just a departure hall..u were there at this very critical moment..its either u survived it or ur not..if u do then live ur life..coz life is short..if u didnt make it..its heaven..or hell..being in the hospital makes me realized all the small things that brings up big impact on ur life..thinking that my life is cut short..i reminiscing all the sins i've commited..given a second chance is an eye opener to me..thats all for this post till next time..take care..

wats luv 4 u??

wats luv...
gotta do gotta do wit it girl..
its bout us..its bout trust..

dats just a lyrics quoting from fat joe ft ashanti
yup..wats luv to u??
i've been thinking bout this lately..
people falling in luv..
people hating luv..

u know wat??..people said those 3 words..
i luv u..
do they really meant it..
do they even know wat luv is??
no..they dont

luv is the best feeling in the world..
u luv the person u loved 4 who they r..
not 4 who they r not..
u need to accept them..
all the flaws..
yup..partners usually accepts the flaws..
not so sincerely..
now thats a bad mojo..

when u luv sum1..
eventhough how bad-ass they could be
how irritating they are
how annoying ur partner is..
all u can do is accepting them..
its about acceptance..

luv is bout trust..
u need to trust them wit all ur heart..
if ur gf/bf said they luv u...
then..trust them..
n please...4 god sake!!
don't be too jealous over each other..
when they're late on replying
ur messages n calls..
do not act like ur a volcano dats about to errupt..
n do not jump to conclusion..
maybe sumthing holding them up..
like i said b4..
loving ur partner is trusting ur partner
coz they're the one u wanna live 4 d rest of ur day

when two peoples are
madly deeply in luv wit each other
there is always a bitter sweet memory that they shared together..
luv is not a skin deep feeling..
like u see this hot guy...
tall..handsome..perfect body..n u fall 4 him..@
pretty..smoking hot bikini body n flipping hair..n u fall 4 her
now honey!!
its not love..its LUST..

summing all the craps that i just wrote..
luv is about
*acceptance*
*trust*
*patience*
if u do not have this 3 things..
cut the bullshit out by not saying i luv u..
coz they might just believe it..

p/s:a luv point of view from mr hopeless romantic..

i've no idea wat title i should gv bout this post

hell-O!!..its me again..
ur over-emotional blogger..
dropping down some words in his blog..
its been exactly a month
since my last post..
that i haven't put out a new entry..

wats new on me??
nothing..i've been the same
since the last time u see me
@ heard from me..
i've got a flat n boring life..
u'll get bored of me eventually
TRUST ME..

im glad dat people are giving me compliment..
my friends in facebook..
u know...
saying..oh..ur handsome..(blah!!)
ur cute!..(eeww!)
ur nice n fun..
I DOUBT IT!!

the problem wit me is
i cant see myself thru my friends eyes..
idk wat they saw in me
its just dat its hard 4 me to believe
all the compliment

maybe its cuz of my very low(how low can i go) self confidence
i hv problem wit dat..
when people complimented me..
i just turn them down..
n saying like..
"oh puhleezz..when u see me in real life, i swear..
ur gonna take all ur compliments back"
n guess wat..im totally okay wit it

now..this may sounds weird..
but i prefer people telling me all my flaws
1)pimple face!
2)short!
3)dark
dats how i feel about myself..
not the other way round..

n believe me my beloved friends..
im not as nice as i look in the picture..
u dun wanna know
ALL THE BAD THINGS IVE DONE
n by that..
i mean A LOT OF BAD THINGS
dat u never thought i did..

now..thats enough of me bragging about watever this stuff is..
on to the next post..
p/s..my result..FAILED

liar liar pants on fire

liar

yup..im a liar
everyone..every people on this planet earth lied
no big deal..
i lied to people around me
they lied to me..
we're even

we lied coz we need to
coz the truth hurts
dats it
people lie just so
their deepest darkest secret
is kept a secret and nobody should know bout it
or
we lied coz people expect too much from us
n we didn't met their expectation
so a lie is wat we need to create
just to c their smile..

lies
to me is a variation of fake words
i lied about my feelings..
i lied about wat i did..
i called people fakes..
but im just like them..
i lied to my frens
to everyone.
i create lies after lies after lies just to cover up a single lies

i dun wanna come clean
i need to open up to people
but i can't
i did it already
nobody needs to know bout my lie..
its better if u dun know the truth
or the truth might make u
crumbling down to the ground
losing faiths n hopes n me
n making u a teary eyed
that will never subside
n things will never be the same again between
u me us n them

"L" - L O S E R F A I L E D!!

GOD PLEASE HELP ME!

HUH..
HERE'S WRECK-WELL A WELL ORIENTED EMO GUY
AND THIS TIME
EMO STRUCK HIS SOUL
AGAIN N ITS A HARD ONE!


SEE...ITS MY EXAM WEEK..
YEAH EXAM..PAPER..STDYING..
(GETTING GOOD GRADES)
JUST FINISH 3 PAPER..
AND I'M PRETTY SURE 2 OF MY PAPER
IS LIKE A PLANE CRASHING DOWN
IN THE SEA
AND EXPLODE TO A THOUSAND PIECES
OF FAILURE


SERIOUSLY..
IM TIRED OF FAILING
I DID LIKE EVERYTHING
MAYBE IM NOT THE MOST HARDWORKING DUDE
IN THIS WORLD
BUT I DID STDY..(AND I FELT LIKE I DIDN'T STDY)
BUT I ENDED UP FAILING
LIKE A PATHETIC LOSER
AND ALL IM GOOD AT IS FAILING


i envied those people
OMG..they are like freaking genius
dey dun even need to study
their head off
yet
thei results is like..(WOW)
i just dun want to get expelled from this u
it would be so embarrassing
but honestly
i might get booted out
next sem..
mom dad..im sorry


moving on to my relationship
yup
everyone knows im single now
just ending my 2 years on n off relationship
truth be told
i still luv her
haha
n i still miss her
i dun know how she felt now
nevermind
i tried to forget her
but DAMN!..it was HARD job..
all the memories we shared together
all the ups and down
all the sulking
currently..im listening to COLBIE CAILLAT
I NEVER TOLD YOU
dat song represent wat i feel about my relationship..
n my relationship quote is
I NEVER STOP LOVING U
IT'S JUST DAT I STOP SHOWING IT

p/s:
luv is universal
luv everyone u want
luv whoever u want
luv as many as u want


move on to my already crumbling apart life
finished all my 3 papers
one more to go and its not a good one
its one of my weakest subject of all
this monday is gonna be shit 4 me
then im finished..but can't go back home yet
OMG!!..i miss MIRI so much..
because of that stupid fucking asshole bullshiting motherfucker
camping that is freaking compulsory to attend
i'll be back on the 15/5
DAMN..it was like 2 weeks from now
ok..i'll survive
i think
and then there's the time
-waiting-for-result-to-be-released-
im dead..i dun want to fail
but i know im gonna failed
people telling me to think positive
but all i have os negativity
and worst of all
im gonna let my parents down
im sorry..
im no good as a human
i'd rather DIE
RIP WRECK WELL

together is not always forever..

hm..

yeah..stop calling me..
im trying to forget u...
but forgetting u is harder than i thought
i still luv u V..
n i know u still luv me
but i'm ready to let u go..
dat conversation we last had
make me realize
that we r not meant to be together..
no matter how strong our luv is..
there are other guys 4 u out there
i know there's a reason of our
on n off relationship..
thanx for always being there
all the time when we're together
when i need u the most
but now..
im trying to be stronger
by doing it alone
im ignoring u
so that i can forget bout u..
n i'm trying really hard
V i hope u understand..
i know its hard..
i don't belong here wit u..
i need to move on here..
n get over us..
it is written that we're together
but we're not destined to be together 4ever..
i pray that
u will find sumbody for my replacement
n thanx for the memories we've together..
ur my fist love that i would never forget..
VSK..im sorry..
take care..n i hope u forget me..