i HATE IT!

I CANT HELP IT!
DAMN!
ITS NOT DAT I HATE MY PARENTS..
I LOVE THEM
BUT SOMETIMES..
UUUURRRGGGHHHH!!!!!

U KNOW..EVERYTIME I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA EXPLODE
WELL..I GOES STRAIGHT TO MY BLOG..
N SHOVE IT ALL IN
IM WRITING IN CAPS LOCK!!
DAMN IT!!

HOW WILL I EVER DEALT WIT THIS
BLAH BLAH BLAH
"I JUST WANT THE BEST 4 U"
YUP..MOM DAD...I KNOW
BUT!!!!

a)IM 20....20 YO!!!!...STOP TREATING ME LIKE IM 12!!
b)THEY WOULDNT ALLOWED ME TO TAKE LICENSE!...LIKE SERIOUSLY????!!!
DAMN IT!...I AM LIKE THE ONLY ONE AMONG MY
FRIENDS WHO DOES NOT KNOW HOW TO DRIVE A CAR!!
c)NO GOING OUT??!!...OK...IF IM A GURL..THEN I WOULD UNDERSTAND...
BUT...IM A DUDE..!..I'LL BE OK..

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!
n so..i smoke..i drink..
but im not a severe rebel 20-yo-dude!!
n i DONT DO DRUGS!
I DUN KILL N I DUN ROBBD!!
N I DUN RAPED!!

dats about it!!!
n they just know how to shut me down..
"boy..i wan't u to have a bright future..blah blah blah.."
i will have a bright future!..if they would have given
freedom to me..
n i know my limit!..i wouldnt do stupid things!..
..ok im out!!..b4 i lose myself to the world of
insanity rebelliousness!!!!..

roll eyes...@__@

hey!!!
its holiday...as usual..a very boring 1..
how'd u doin..
ok..i sounded crapd out!
i've done nothing..

ok...erm..its FB
u know how much i spend like my 25/7 of hours on fb..
n it irritates me
urgh!
my friends..not all of them..
just some of them only

a)i have some friends..apparently..some of them are korean artist..
hollywood too..n even models n sports athlete..
fuck them!...like seriously..use ur own fucking picture ok..
i know u r fucking ugly..dun care..just dun use some celeb pics..shame n u!!

b)my frens..oh well..my frens...why do u bother to add me up!
den u didn't even interact wit me..oh..u fucking asshole..
wat??!!..adding me just to fill up ur fren list
u pathehtic lil asshole cunt!!
dat applied to both my male n female fren
who never NEVER say a word n interact wit me

urgh!!..damn it!!..im full of anger..!!

n seriously guys???!!!
why n how can u fall for me
eewww..
u gross liltle creature..
yah..i know..im good looking
handsome n all..
but we haven't met
so NO..its a big NO-NO
u just went to another rejected list of mine
hey...slow down ur horses
lets know each other better..
met up..hang out..
then we can figure things out..

n a friendly reminder..
this is my blog..
i blogged about my life..
i know its kinda boring
but i like it..
n u haters out there(if any)
dun bother to read
cuz this is not a sex blog..a gossip celebrity blog..a educational blog
or even politic..
just a story of my life..

bla bla bla
ok racq..u blabbered way too much..
see ya peeps!!
i wanna dlete some fren..
:))

T i love u so much!!!

hey hey..im here again..:)

again..im going to talk bout my life
my fucked up life
so my readers..since this blog is basically bout my life
so dealt wit it ok..
complainer n whiner can go fuckurself

anyway...
i fall in love...
yeah!!
i wish i can tell the whole world who this person isbut....
damn..
i cant..

we met in facebook.
p/s:..i actually have set my eyes on this T a long time ago
but i dun wanna add Ti just wait..a few months past
and then just the end of this september
T add me as fren
i was like...wat??!!
so i was literally smiling to my ears..
confirming T

n we started to pm
haha
den i told her dat i used to admire her
but dont dare to
add T as fren.i just love dat moment.
i love T so much

haha..den i ask to be in a rltnship
T hesitate.
there is term n condition applied..
T wanna meet 1st before we jump into a relationship
i was like...ok.....
T said we'll met in miri..1 months 13 days from now
i said yes
i'll wait 4 T
1 month 13 days is nothingn T said
dat she love me too..

awww...i was in love wit T
falling hard!!
we chat..we text..
we webcam..we call each other
for the past few days
i spend almost rm50 on my hp
its worth it
i love T
btw:..T is so fucking tall..n im dat shortay..;(
i wish i can tell the whole world dat i love T
so damn fucking much
its good dat we're both in miri.
but due to some circumstances
we can go tell people dat we love each other
me n T decided dat
"its a secret we'll nvr tell..xoxo..GG"
but i post this in my blog
coz im sure nobody knows who T is
please dun ask why
the only thing dat matter isI LOVE T!

1 MONTH and 13 days sayang
i'll wait..i love u
i'll always b ur dior!
the perfume dat sticks to ur body
forever

p/s:..dat is the story of my personal relationship life..about my study..well..nothing much..sucks like a fucking asshole motherfucker..at least my rlationshp got bettr

I LOVE U T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

facebooking

its been like 4ever since i last post sumthing here..
hello there my fellow 21 followers..
luv u..
n those who read my blog
if any..i bet no one read it..

my post 4 today is about facebooking..
yup....facebook..
.im undergo my 2 weeks of boring holidays
and all i do is facebooking
like every single minute of my whole lot hols..

facebook is for people to catch up wit frens
from around the world
wat i realised bout facebook is
the facebooker is fake not real plastic n hypocrite
not all facebooker
just some of it

people removes me
from their fren
huh?!!
wat the fuck!
wat did i do to u
u add me up
then u remove me
fuck u!

some of my fren says to me
"racq..u r so annoying in facebook..i mean ur post full my news feed"
aww...i did...dats bad..
well if dats d case
u r cordially invited to remove me frm ur fren
but when i did nothing to u..
and out of the blue
u remove me..
dats a fucker douchebag right there

n facebooker is like so fake
i saw sum of my fren having their profile pic so hot!
too bad its not theirs..
they took it frm the celebutons..
awww...ur ashamed of ur ugliness..
nvm..im ugly too..but my profile pic is real..

n people add me up..
n i confirm them..
n dats it??!!
ur not going to say sumthing
wats the first sentnce whn u wanna b fren wit someone new?
i hate it!
if u just added me to fill in ur fren list
u better not add me though..

people add other people based on their profile pics
yup...
if u have this hot bombastic flawless pic
u'll be a one hit wonder of the internet sensation
having like 5000 frens
o...trust me...ur not connecting wit all of them
maybe its not ur fault
they add u up..
or vice versa...

facebook is for new people meeting new people..
connecting..make new frens
even create a long distant relationship
so why not do it?
??.....people nowadays..
is hard to predict..
this is my view on facebook

departure

hye guys..its me..ric the rac..im so bored so i decided to blog sumthing about..this time its LIFE..yup..life..just so all of u know..i was hospitalized last week 4 dengue..not to worry..its not really dengue..after further diagnosed by the doc..i just caught viral fever..
its a virus infection that cause fever to me..i was so hot..my body temperature rise but i feel so cold at that time..i was literally trembling my shaky bones..i even hv difficulty in breathing..its like i've suffocated myself..seriously..i thought i was going to die..n so i was hospitalized..i'll skip the process..the doc just inserted 2 IV's on both side of my hand..they said there's not much water inside my body..n suprise suprise my only cure is water..i think i hv a LOT of those water bottle they inserted thru the IV..i even need to measure my own urine when i pee..ewww!!..that is like the most disgusted gross things that a person ever do..i mean..measure ur own urine..urgh!!..

after 3 days..i was released...yea me..but my 3 days in the hospital was an eye opener to me..i saw people died in front of me..life is short..there was this old man..his bed is right in front of me..he has dis breathing thingy on his face to help him breathe..i was in the toilet at that time..only to hear people suddenly crying..that man just passed away..may him rest in peace above..n my condolences to the family..

i think that bed in front of me really hv bad mojo..the next occupants in it is in critical condition..again with the IV n a lot of breathing device connected to him..he was regularly supervised n monitored by the doc's n nurse..this grandpa came from a strong christian family..they have all gathered there to pray for the poor grandpa..n i think their prayer has been answered..he was in stable condition although he haven't woke up yet..thats the last thing i know bout him before i was discharged..i hope he recover soon coz he hv a very loving family behind him..

the rest of the patients in the ward is just like me..i saw a lot of love in the room..there's this very old couple..the husband was lying down in bed sick..the the wife is there wit him all the time..this old couple shows me that life is short n that they will survived it together..it broke my heart to see them undergoes this challenges at this age..there's also this teenage guy n his dad..his dad cares for him like he was his life..bringing him food..warming him up..making sure everything is fine wit his boy..they show compassion to me..

hospital for me is just a departure hall..u were there at this very critical moment..its either u survived it or ur not..if u do then live ur life..coz life is short..if u didnt make it..its heaven..or hell..being in the hospital makes me realized all the small things that brings up big impact on ur life..thinking that my life is cut short..i reminiscing all the sins i've commited..given a second chance is an eye opener to me..thats all for this post till next time..take care..

wats luv 4 u??

wats luv...
gotta do gotta do wit it girl..
its bout us..its bout trust..

dats just a lyrics quoting from fat joe ft ashanti
yup..wats luv to u??
i've been thinking bout this lately..
people falling in luv..
people hating luv..

u know wat??..people said those 3 words..
i luv u..
do they really meant it..
do they even know wat luv is??
no..they dont

luv is the best feeling in the world..
u luv the person u loved 4 who they r..
not 4 who they r not..
u need to accept them..
all the flaws..
yup..partners usually accepts the flaws..
not so sincerely..
now thats a bad mojo..

when u luv sum1..
eventhough how bad-ass they could be
how irritating they are
how annoying ur partner is..
all u can do is accepting them..
its about acceptance..

luv is bout trust..
u need to trust them wit all ur heart..
if ur gf/bf said they luv u...
then..trust them..
n please...4 god sake!!
don't be too jealous over each other..
when they're late on replying
ur messages n calls..
do not act like ur a volcano dats about to errupt..
n do not jump to conclusion..
maybe sumthing holding them up..
like i said b4..
loving ur partner is trusting ur partner
coz they're the one u wanna live 4 d rest of ur day

when two peoples are
madly deeply in luv wit each other
there is always a bitter sweet memory that they shared together..
luv is not a skin deep feeling..
like u see this hot guy...
tall..handsome..perfect body..n u fall 4 him..@
pretty..smoking hot bikini body n flipping hair..n u fall 4 her
now honey!!
its not love..its LUST..

summing all the craps that i just wrote..
luv is about
*acceptance*
*trust*
*patience*
if u do not have this 3 things..
cut the bullshit out by not saying i luv u..
coz they might just believe it..

p/s:a luv point of view from mr hopeless romantic..

i've no idea wat title i should gv bout this post

hell-O!!..its me again..
ur over-emotional blogger..
dropping down some words in his blog..
its been exactly a month
since my last post..
that i haven't put out a new entry..

wats new on me??
nothing..i've been the same
since the last time u see me
@ heard from me..
i've got a flat n boring life..
u'll get bored of me eventually
TRUST ME..

im glad dat people are giving me compliment..
my friends in facebook..
u know...
saying..oh..ur handsome..(blah!!)
ur cute!..(eeww!)
ur nice n fun..
I DOUBT IT!!

the problem wit me is
i cant see myself thru my friends eyes..
idk wat they saw in me
its just dat its hard 4 me to believe
all the compliment

maybe its cuz of my very low(how low can i go) self confidence
i hv problem wit dat..
when people complimented me..
i just turn them down..
n saying like..
"oh puhleezz..when u see me in real life, i swear..
ur gonna take all ur compliments back"
n guess wat..im totally okay wit it

now..this may sounds weird..
but i prefer people telling me all my flaws
1)pimple face!
2)short!
3)dark
dats how i feel about myself..
not the other way round..

n believe me my beloved friends..
im not as nice as i look in the picture..
u dun wanna know
ALL THE BAD THINGS IVE DONE
n by that..
i mean A LOT OF BAD THINGS
dat u never thought i did..

now..thats enough of me bragging about watever this stuff is..
on to the next post..
p/s..my result..FAILED